I am updating the layout of my blog, redesigning the graphics on my blog, and I picked out a new profile photo.
Believe it or not, this was a struggle for me. It was a struggle because my previous photo was taken before my hysterectomy.
I didn’t want to change the photo. It reminded me of what could have been. It reminded me that back then, I was and felt like a woman.
Tonight I honestly cried. Don’t ask me why, because I have no idea why. I just did. I told my husband about it and why it bothers me. I even cried when I told him about it.
I pointed out to him some of the good things that have come out of this. However, I couldn’t find anything else other than one good thing.
I had to stop thinking about the hysterectomy. I had to stop dwelling on it. I’m not sure why this is such a struggle for me. It’s weird but it still hurts.
I still can’t wrap my head around this surgery even though it happened months ago. I guess I’m still in the healing process mentally and emotionally.
I need to remember that I am still a woman. I am still the authentic woman who I strive to be every single day.
If you are still struggling with a hysterectomy even though it’s been months since your surgery, then you aren’t alone.
This is why I share my struggles with you because I know what it’s like facing a battle all by yourself.